What does music means to you? It means LIFE! What does life means to you? It means MUSIC!

Maybe i'm the real musician!
Waahahhahaha.
Just kidding.
Maybe not.

I've just discovered something about music.
That is, have your own style.
It starts with minute details when you're playing an instrument.
How so?

Here's it:
I've just discovered that when you play an instrument, you don't really need to follow the fingerings.
(Actually, i knew it long time ago)
Well, that is to say, so long as the song you play turns out right, who gives a shit about the right position/fingerings?
Also, everyone has their own style. And i've noticed that some piano scores, the same song has different fingerings as it is noted down by different people!

No wonder i didn't like my previous 1 month piano teacher. She is so strict on the fingerings and there's no room for arguments. We just don't get along well. I'm supposed to enjoy playing the piano but in the end, i was always unhappy and pissed off during and after her lesson.
So that is why i discontinued hastily.

Playing a music piece actually depends on how you interpret it. Its a matter of how comfortable you are in your playing and the piece you play.
What i think is that the fingerings noted on some score are just guidelines.
Rules can be bend.
So does music pieces.
What matter most is the ending result.

Miyavi's guitar skills pointed out something important in music.
That is, creating your own style.
I notice that the way he plays the guitar is unique.
Guess the fingerings is how he wanted and feel comfortable with.

No wonder, i dislike classical music or going to piano lesson sometimes.
The people are too rigid with the right thing, right fingerings and everything.
No sense of their own style.
Hence, being just a music teacher or examiner or whatever.
No insult intended. Please do not get offended!!!
Some just love to be a music teacher and even so, i respect them.
Cos without music teachers, i don't think we'll be able to grasp the basics.

However, learning music and becoming a music teacher was never on my agenda.
I hate teaching.
Teaching is something mundane and doesn't brings out what i want.
And i have really high expectation and seek perfectionism in others.
So, not a right career to choose from.

What i really want is to study music, but also create and do something really interesting and unique.
This is what i really want after much thinking.
And it kinds of brings out what i want after listening and watching what the visual keis does.
Those are what i want.

REAL MUSIC.

Something of my own.

So, in another words, i want to be maybe, a composer? A music producer? Or singer?
Yeah, maybe.
But i am contented with creating and composing music and working with talented people/singers and whatever.

However, i think people have to accomodate with me.
I have a weird personality/character which people points out to me and I thought it was true.
I had enough of accomodating with others.
I think is high time if people accomodate with me and accept who i am.

Well, apparently, i guess no one will unless i am rich and famous.
Which i intended to be.
Rich and Famous in the Entertainment/Music industry.
Work with the people i like and want.
The people i choose to work with.
And people who WANTS to work with me.

You can say i'm selfish.
But that's the fact.
You have to be selfish sometimes to attain what you want.
And you also have to be heartless at times to achieve what you want.
That's life.
To quote Eminem's Love the way you lie : "Life is no nitendo game"

Nice.

PEACE V
Ciao
-CWAM